Smile

Hello all, it’s a lazy Tuesday night, and as usual I’m a single pringle so I’m back to find solace in my internet friends (:

Recently a lot of things have led to me having to be serious and sombre in every situation. Everywhere I look, everyone’s face is downcast and fraught with worry and stress lines, probably because of terms tests/mid semester tests.

Why is everyone being so solemn and sad? I hate it when before you enter into an examination hall/testing hall, everyone feels the need to be cramming in their last-minute studying and ignoring everything going on around them in the process.

I miss the times when everyone was still cheerful and laughed at everything no matter how funny it was. Now my cold jokes are faced with stones faces, bitchy looks of disdain, and other relatively mean looks. Hurting much?

I wish everyone would see how much they could SMILE at in this world. They could smile at the fact that their able to take term tests. They can smile at the fact that they have pets to return home to. They can smile about the fact that they have someone to listen to them ramble on about the mistakes and the loss marks in their tests. They can smile about the fact that people still love them no matter what they score.

LOOK UP. TALK to the ones around you. Have some interaction. Stop being stressed out. Stop this bullshit of wanting to score full marks, no one is going to score full marks, exams in college are made do be so. They’ll tell you to study chapter one then test you on something in chapter seventeen. Give it up.

This post is nothing special, I just felt like telling you loves that everything isn’t over yet, we’re SEVENTEEN. Our world’s will not shatter into a million pieces if we fail A TERM TEST. I know it’s stressful, and life will not be as satisfying if we do fail, but believe in yourself a little, come on.

Appreciate the life you have, the people you meet, the people who love you and who you love. The special friends, the not-so-special friends. Smile more because somewhere on this earth, someone’s gonna be smiling along with you.

Love you guys,
Sam XOXO

Daughtry – Waiting For Superman

Emotions slut

Hey readers!!

I know I haven’t blogged in a long time, and I apologise in advance for not blogging and the amount of typos I have in my post today. I’m starting this post about 12.30 in the morning, so please excuse all my typos! I’ll come back another day and edit it for all you grammar and vocab nazis. As most of you know, I’ve recently been accepted in to PFP at Temasek Poly, and I’m super happy about being able to study there, despite everyone being so fashion conscious and slightly judgmental, I would still pick this school over any other. But the one big thing that I’ve always been thinking about (like it’s literally on my mind whenever I’m free) is the super simple question of why I’m single. I’ve recently been really struggling with this because I’ve made new friends, met new people, and everyone around me seems to be finding their significant other barely just a month into starting school. I love being single, trust me, no unnecessary fights or buying of gifts etc, but I just miss being someone’s first choice. I know those who know me well may counter my statement by saying that I’m always being a bitch to my boyfriend and breaking their hearts, but you think I DON’T ALREADY KNOW THAT? I mean I’m the one actually in the relationship right? I know what’s going on, I know that I’m being a bitch, and I know that complaining is hypocritical of me, but not everyone’s perfect ok. I made mistakes and still am making mistakes. I think I like someone who has a girlfriend, if that’s not a big enough mistake then I don’t know what is. 

So today’s post is dedicated to those who are in the same boat as I am.Whether you like someone and they don’t return the feelings, or they’re attached, or for whatever reason they’re just not that into you.

#1 – Staring is not okay.

Do not, please do not, for the love of God, STARE AT THEM every chance you get. You want to know how stalkers start out? BY STARING. They stare at their Instagram profiles, Twitter profiles, Facebook timelines, tumblr dashboards, Whatsapp profile pictures and etc. If you take a photo with them, DO NOT PUT IT AS YOUR WALLPAPER. DO NOT. DO NOT. DO NOT DO THAT SHIT, whenever you unlock your phone you’ll just be submitting yourself to a tidal wave of thoughts about that person. Just staring at them allows your mind to wander and for you to daydream, don’t want to be daydreaming about things that aren’t likely to happen now do you?

#2 – DO NOT text them with the mindset that they like you to

This one may seem a little needless-to-say but trust me. It makes sense once you actually think about it. After daydreaming for however many days before you contact them, you’re going to have this preconceived notion that they like you back and are daydreaming about you too. I’m sorry to burst your bubble but they aren’t. They aren’t going to reply you super quickly as if they’re eagerly waiting for your text. and you’re probably going to try to be as nice as possible to them right?

Don’t be! Just be yourself, if you’re a cynical and sarcastic person, BE CYNICAL AND SARCASTIC. It’s better it it’s never going to work out, to just be friends with that person. And changing your personality after being super nice to them for a long time would honestly be super weird, can you even imagine. So just be yourself when you talk to them, there’s absolutely no need to pretend in any way or change who you are.

#3 – No love songs

Remember the time you actually had a boyfriend/relationship with someone and you downloaded all those amazing love songs by Ron Pope? Well, they’re still there after your relationship ended, in fact they’re still there today. Whenever you plug-in your earpiece, the chance of them being played is impossibly high. Just be aware of what you’re listening to, you don’t want a certain lyrics of the song to suddenly hit you hard and bring on the waterworks right?

#4 – Be grounded

Having your head in the clouds and dreaming about going on dates with them will not help your situation. You CAN resist those thoughts. Resist the scene of them sending you to your door and kissing you on the forehead before they leave. Remove the scene of you two holding hands in school and laughing. Instead, replace them with more friendly thoughts, hanging out in a group of friends, going for group dinners etc. Things that FRIENDS would do together. Be honest with yourself about your relationship with this person. It’ll hurt to know that they’ll never feel the same way, but it’s better to think of them as a friend and being realistic than daydreaming about a relationship that is unlikely to occur.

 #5 – Your current friends

Talk to the friends you already have. From experience, I trust my friends with my life, so when they feel like I’m heading down the wrong road, they’ll tell it to me straight. This way it’ll be easier for me to eventually forget someone. Friends affect you and your mindset more than you think they do, and they listen to enough stories from you to access your situation properly and give you the best advice possible. So just trust them ok?

#6 – Try your best not to compare

After blogging for almost six months and gaining some observation skills,  I’ve come to truly realise that being attractive is just a bonus. The real thing you should look for in a person is their character. Are they going to remember your birthday? Give you small little surprises whenever they can? Or are they going to forget and be too lazy to walk you home? Too busy to just stop everything and have a nice dinner?

Not everyone looks like this.

Please stop comparing yourself to everyone who seems prettier or more handsome than you. I see so many TPConfessions about people bring attractive, and being eye candys, it kind of saddens me to know that many of these confessions are about total strangers and that they instantly like someone without knowing their personality at all. Yes, I know that everyone is attracted at first sight based on looks, but please try to get to know the person before liking them? Get to know their attitude about life, their likes and dislikes, what makes their eyes light up and what makes them go glassy. Everyone can look like a supermodel on the outside, but not all will mirror that beauty in their hearts. So getting back to my main point, you can be the most amazing, skinny and attractive model on the outside, but if your heart is as black as night, what’s the point? You may be surrounded by people you think are ten times more attractive than you are, but someone will pick you out of the crowd, and you’ll be exactly what they’re looking for, so don’t sweat it kid.

#6 – MOVE ON

  If you know that nothing is going to happen with your crush, try to move on. Try your best, then try some more. Stop looking at their pictures and stalking their profiles. Stop trying to invite them in as a relationship and look at it more as friendship. Being friends is better than strangers so don’t push them to the limit where they will stop trying to be your friend. Having daily conversations with them is better than talking to them once of twice a week under awkward circumstances. Being their friend means being able to laugh with them about a funny video or joke, not feeling the pressure to be perfect around them all the time, talking A LOT more, building a special bond that only friends have. Love yourself for who you already are, don’t change for someone. Don’t wear a skirt just because you want to impress a guy if you prefer to wear jeans everyday. When the right one crosses your path, you’ll probably be hesitant to open up your heart after being rejected before. But the right person will somehow weasel their way into your heart and nestle there to stay. Be confident, play games with them, be yourself. We all have someone. Just because your friend found theirs at sixteen shouldn’t put more pressure on you to find yours soon. They’re just a little lost, they’ll find their way.

I love you guys as always,

XOXO Sam

Important notes of Oz

Hey guys

Lately I travelled to the glorious down-under, Australia. To sum up some of my experiences I had there, I took down random notes throughout the whole time I was there and reading them now, I feel like it’s of up most importance that I share them with the world (:

I know that these notes may sound really stereotypical and trivial, but for someone whose dream is like that of mine to live in Australia in the future, everything you encounter will seem like it’s incredibly fascinating and that everyone there is made out of pixie dust and unicorn breath, so please pardon  whatever stereotyping I may seem to be doing in my following points (:

1. Double decker trains
   I know that not only Sydney has these trains, but to see them in reality makes me question why Singapore isn’t investing in building these trains right now. Maybe we don’t have enough people living in Singapore to raise the need for these trains, but still it would be so cool! Imagine never having to rush into trains for seats only to find  that only the taboo reserved seat is empty.
2. Weather
   So when I went, it was Autumn and still is. This means freezing mornings, sweltering afternoons and freezing evenings once again. This made it a little tough to choose what to wear during the day because dressing for winter in the morning isn’t exactly appropriate for the afternoon when the sun decides to start shining. But still, cooler than Singapore (:
3. No one cares about how you dress and act
   Something I wish SO DESPERATELY Singaporeans would learn to do. As a teenager living here in Singapore, it seems to me that new trends come and go like the wind, and that almost everyone is able to adapt to the never-ending trends. In Australia, you could wear a gunny sack and a pair of slippers and no one would give you a second look. As long as you think you look good in what you’re wearing, everyone else is fine with it.
4. Sexy accents
   When I wrote the disclaimer above about stereotyping, I had this point in mind. I think it’s a very non-caucasian thing to think that the accents of caucasian men and women are sexy or attractive. BUT SERIOUSLY, I wish I could drink some magic elixir so that I would have their accent for the rest of my life. EVEN THE MEN ANNOUNCING THAT THE ‘TRAIN DOORS ARE CLOSING’ HAVE SEXY ACCENTS.
5. If they can make food into a roll, they will.
   I saw sushi in huge rolls, huge egg rolls and I think that you can guess why wraps would be such a huge win with them.
6. “How’s it going?”
   I got asked this question EVERY TIME I walked into a store, and being raised somewhere where you never hear that questions like that, I didn’t know how to reply them at all. In the end, I ended mumbling ‘I’m fine’ really softly. Smooth right.

Those were some of the notes that I thought were worth elaborating on, maybe the next time you go to Oz, you’ll experience all these things too (:

Love you guys
Sam

Don’t You Remember (live) by Adele

Too Many Times

Why do feelings have to happen
Why do we constantly put ourselves through this pain
Why do we set ourselves up for failure
Why do I do this all in vain

What the damn hell is wrong with me
I should be focusing on life
I should be focusing on dance
But yet it’s thoughts about you that are rife

You probably think I’m crazy
Just a shot of fun
Admittedly I am, for you
But that won’t stop you from the run

I’m so sick of doing this
I want to be done
But when it comes you
All I am seems to become undone

We barely meet
Yet I see you constantly
You’re from another world
Of which I am a mere wannabe

Maybe one day, i’ll be surprised
To see you knocking on my door
But till then I shall continue
Living in my state of stupor

-SGL

Do I Wanna Know By Arctic Monkeys

Artists With Different Visions

Hey guys
I want to talk about something that’s been on my mind a lot lately. I have tattoos, that’s no secret. And I remember being so terrified of the reactions from people that I would have had to face at that time.

Pre-tattoos, I frequently talked about getting tattoos with my friends and many of them gave me the same reply,

I got tame reactions like,

‘I wouldn’t get one because why would I want something to be on my body forever? I can’t remove it, it’s there permanently.’

And stereotypical ones like,

‘Tattoos are for gangsters and bimbos.’

These reactions garnered from a simple question of whether they would get tattoos or not peaked my interest. A lot haha. When I set forth on my short period of studying in Sec 5, I had started to really consider getting a tattoo, despite all the (majority) negative reactions I got.

After I was cleared to leave secondary school, the thoughts of getting a tattoo really started to plague me. I constantly thought about it, the design and the area I wanted to get it, the pain level, the cost etc. So after a long time I decided to find a place and get it done. Once people started noticing my tattoo, their reactions were somewhat expected. Most of them gave me disapproving looks and acted like the tattoo was invisible, refusing to even speak of it. Others asked me why I would want to ruin my body, some even blatantly told me that I would regret my choice of getting it done.

So this is my reply to all of you who are disapproving of tattoos for whatever reason that can be fathomed from your tunnel-visioned mind.

PEOPLE WITH TATTOOS DON’T GET THEM FOR SOCIETY’S APPROVAL,
WE GET THEM BECAUSE WE WANT TO, PERIOD.

If the people with tattoos are so desperately in need for the majority of society’s approval, we would all be as clean as new born babes, like blank canvases.

Think of it this way,

Group 1, these people enjoy looking at the simplicity of blank canvases, they’re artists of their own. They prefer to sketch and leave the canvas as blank as possible, or only draw things that they can erase fully.

Group 2, the people who draw small tiny little designs at the corner of the canvas. Small symbols, sketches in pen. Things that they feel should be permanently drawn on the canvas because it means something to them and they want the world to see their small but meaningful art. These drawings needn’t have meaning either, they could just be doodles that the person enjoys drawing. These people, are artists as well.

THEN, there’s the people in Group 3. These people use the whole canvas and cover it in sketches and paints. These are the artists that wildly flick different coloured paints with the same brush. Their art is something that they want people to stop and notice, enquire about, show interest in. They want to show the world what is in their souls and proclaim it as loudly as possible.

 

We are all artists and our bodies are our personal canvases. We can leave it as blank or as ink-filled as we want. No one has the right to look as someone else’s canvas and say,

‘That is so ugly, why would you draw that? Now you’ve ruined your whole painting.’

Think about what you’re saying before you say it, not everything that comes out of your mouth is as polite as you think it sounds buddy.

People with tattoos enjoy having ink stabbed into their skin while creating a permanent design on their body. And if you feel the need to say something negative or stereotypical, why don’t you try asking the person what the tattoo is about/for. Most tattoos have a backstory that could bring you to tears, so don’t judge em’ as you see em’.

If you want to get a tattoo, you just go ahead. Don’t let anyone stop you with their opinions. It’s what you want to do, everyone is just going to have to live with it. Just do proper research and try drawing the tattoo with a marker first before really decided okay? What looks good in your mind could look really really different on the skin.

Love you guys
Sam

Wait A Minute (Explicit) by Tyga ft. Justin Bieber 

 

 

Making Snow Angels

Hey guys

I recently chanced upon this gif of Olaf on tumblr and it really got me thinking.I know it’s weird that an animation from a cartoon movie has got my brain juice going, but even if you don’t get what I’m about to say, you can still enjoy watching him make a snow angel in what he’s made of.

Olaf looks so content just laying there in the snow and enjoying himself, he’s a snowman, playing in the snow. To be so happy just laying around in what makes up his very being.

I think sometimes we need to just stand back and re-evaluate what we choose to fill our lives with. Are we surrounded my friends that we can be ourselves with or friends that we have a put up a front in front of? Are you doing what you really love right now or are you wallowing in the misery of settling for second best?

It’s common human behaviour to create an environment for ourselves that makes us happy, because who doesn’t want to be happy? But sometimes matters fall through the cracks of that perfect environment that we try to create for ourselves and remain there, in those small cracks.

We should all make the effort to make our lives better for ourselves, don’t you think? Get rid of all the ‘weeds’ in our lives. A frienemy for example. You know it, he/she knows it, so why continue a friendship that only disappointments can be reaped from?

Everyone knows making the effort is tough, but isn’t it worth it a hundred percent? Fill your life with the things and people that make you happy and you’ll have nothing to complain about (:

Btw, Happy Valentine’s Day all you sweethearts out there. For those who are single, don’t worry, I love you!! :*

Love ya
Sam

Queen of Hearts by We The Kings

Baby Steps

Hey everyone.
It’s not a big secret amongst my friends that I’m not satisfied with living in Singapore forever. I know this can be touchy subject with some Singaporeans that are die-hard fans for this country and sing the National Day songs with the pride of winning a grammy, but to face facts, 56 percent of Singaporeans would migrate given the chance, and I happen to fall into the 56 percent.

Singapore is a beautiful country and I would kill to live here if I craved security and routine in my life. But as many youngsters my age, I want to feel the thrill of adventure and get the chance to have new experiences each and everyday.

Living in a city that lights up like a Christmas Tree every night

Walking through streets that are exactly what you imagined when you read that book

Bumping into the different types of people on the street

Bonfire nights in the mountains

Having to take mini road trips because of the long distances between towns

I could list off the perks of living somewhere else forever.
In a way I guess me wanting to migrate is a metaphor for how much I want to go somewhere else and be someone else. Experience everything differently. Maybe if I wasn’t brought up here I would be a completely different person. Growing up with different friends, having different morals e.t.c.
Maybe I would be happily in love or painfully falling out of it.
I would be getting up and getting ready for school instead of sitting here and typing this.
I wouldn’t be dreaming about this because it would actually be happening.

But what if i grew up on the other side of the world and hated that life too?
What if I wanted to live here in the exotic island of Singapore and meet guys that were generally shy and reserved instead of the normal boastful and overprotective ones? (I’m totally stereotyping and I’m sorry, but movies get to ya)

I’m not happy with the life I’m living and that’s why I want to leave, try to get the best of both worlds. I’ll never be satisfied with what I already have, I’ll look past the things that are right in front of me and pursue the things that are unattainable.

Life throws us curveballs, and we can’t miraculously catch them all. But I’m damn well going to try.

Say You Like Me by We The Kings

Love ya,
Sam G

PS: Happier segment
CONGRATULATIONS to all the Sec 4 and 5 students who have been posted to the schools of your choice, I wish you all good luck and hope you’ll have the the highest GPA in your school.

How It Begins

Greetings to you all, okay so here’s the deal, I have completely no idea how people have the guts to just start talking to someone new who happens to be attractive. As a girl, pride plays a big part in talking to someone I find attractive. Take for example I find you attractive (presuming you’re a guy), I don’t even bother finding out whether you think similarly about me or not, I’m desperately wishing that you will come up and talk to me, even if it’s something incredibly small-talkish like commenting on the weather. I’ll also probably be staring at you for almost the whole time we are within proximity of each other, so please don’t be freaked out, I’m no serial killer haha. So recently something like the example I gave you, actually happened to me, and worst of all, currently pride is still getting in the way of me being able to just talk to him. My pride stopping me from introducing myself registers as really stupid behaviour when I’m alone and thinking about it, but when I actually see the said person, I will go into a mood where I think that if I just stand there and try to look as pretty as I possibly can, he will just decide to come over and talk to me because of my overwhelming beauty. HAHA let’s be honest, that’s not going to happen. He probably thinks I’m some weirdo who keeps catching his eye and would in fact, try his best to avoid me.

SO WHAT’S A GIRL TO DO?????

I’m honestly like on the verge of screaming. WHY CAN’T I JUST GO UP AND TALK TO HIM? INTRODUCE MYSELF AND MAKE SMALL CONVERSATION IN THE HOPES THAT HE’LL REALISE MY BURNING INTEREST IN HIM HAHA

I need advice guys. Desperately. Anyone who’s reading this and has some MEANINGFUL advice, I’m all ears. Please contact me haha.

Oh and what sucks the most, in a short period of time, we won’t exactly be in such ‘close’ proximity any longer. Help my urgent soul, please.

Love ya,
Sam xoxo

Guy Sebastian – Like A Drum

Desperate TLC

Hey guys! I’m finally getting around to writing a new post after procrastinating for such a long time. Please forgive how rude I have been by ignoring this blog. I apologise deeply, haha. I have a advert-like post today but trust me okay, this post isn’t sponsored, although I desperately wish it was.

Last week I was feeling particularly dowdy after looking at all the models on tumblr, and decided that I wanted something done to prettify myself. I was considering getting my nails done, but that would have been pointless considering I’m carrying heavy boxes and baskets everyday for work. I considered going out shopping too, but I just wasn’t in the mood for walking around an extremely crowded Bugis and being elbowed in the all wrong places by complete strangers. So my last resort was doing something to my hair. I’ve rebonded my hair three times, and recently decided to get it permed. Needless to say, I hate my post permed hair. After the hairdresser finished perming my hair a neighbourhood salon, I was completely mortified and blatantly refused to take selfies for about two weeks. I’M NOT SAYING THAT NEIGHBOURHOOD SALONS DON’ PROVIDE SATISFACTORY RESULTS, I have had all my rebonding jobs done at neighbourhood salons and have been happy with the result. I’m just saying that maybe some things would be better done at a more well known, professional salon.
Which brings me back to my point, I decided to get my hair done in one morning and after some research, found out that Far East Plaza had many salons and I figured that I would just go there in the morning and try to find a salon that would help me achieve the results that I wanted. I walked around for almost half an hour and finally walked past I*CON Shunji Matsuo by Lily Xu

I was in love. I mean look at the interior of the salon! I walked up to the front desk and was immediately offered assistance by one of the senior stylists there, Wilson. He discussed the prices and choices that I had regarding what I wanted done to my hair and was really friendly. You know how some stores think that they’re too elite for teenagers and anyone who isn’t an adult to afford their services and would just completely ignore you and flippantly answer your questions? Well Shunji Matsuo isn’t a salon like that. Wilson answered all my queries and wasn’t patronising in the least bit. From the moment I was lead in and sat down in one of the striking, blood orange chairs, I knew that I would be happy with the results. I had to get quite a lot done to my hair to achieve the results I desired so I had to sit down for quite some time, but instead of it all being really uncomfortable and boring, I was offered magazines to read, tea to drink and frequently asked questions like ‘Is the hairdryer too hot?’ and ‘If it’s uncomfortable for you in anyway, just tell me’ by all the stylists that worked on my hair. Polite conversation was also always going on if  I participated in it and the whole atmosphere was really relaxing and not pretentious at all.

After sitting in the chair for two hours, sitting through the dyeing and styling of my hair, I was super nervous for the results because everything seemed to pass by in a hurried blur while I was sitting in the chair and I didn’t remember making any confirmed choices.

    

My doubts were for nothing. I was so happy with my hair that I couldn’t stop smiling the whole day. An update on my hair 2 weeks later, after washing it and styling it almost everyday, the colour is still holding up well. It has faded a little to a SLIGHTLY darker shade of red, but still looks vibrant. There is one small section of my hair that has faded a lot and has become an orangey colour, but I love that section too because the colour still looks cool haha.

I hope you guys liked reading this post and are on your way to giving Shunji Matsuo a try, haha 🙂 For those who are really interested though, this is the price list

It may seem a little pricey for some of you, but trust me, with the service and the results you get, it’ll all be worth it. I was originally hesitant because of the price but I don’t regret getting my hair done there at all.
So thank you guys for reading, I hope I peaked an interest in Shunji Matsuo in all of you, and as usual, love ya.

‘”Life’s too short not to have really exciting hair” – Jenna Marbles

Sam Grace

PS – To all those who are taking your N Level results on Thursday, good luck and I hope that all of you get the results that you aimed for and even better. Good luck for your future endeavours and accomplishing goals !! 🙂

PPS – MY BLOG HAS OVER A THOUSAND VIEWS GUYS !!!! I’m really really thankful for that number even though it may seem like a small number to some people but it’s really heartwarming for me to know that people actually read what I write about my life haha, I’m very flattered, thank you guys so much ♥

PPPS – CHRISTMAS IS COMING !!!! Get your attitudes in shape and tempers reeled in if you want to get presents from Santa. I hope everyone enjoys Christmas and gets loads of presents, and gives loads of presents too okay. Okay Byeeeeeeeeee

The Sense

I can’t help but feel this sense
Of how close you are to me
Of how I could just reach out and feel you

I spend everyday thinking
About how us meeting would go down
About how falling in love with you would be like

Would it be a sudden thing
Like waking up one day with realisation hitting my heart
Like being hit by it one rainy night while I’m laughing at something you said

Will I be happy
Would I wake up everyday with the smile you give me
Would memories be triggered with something as plain as a smell

Where would I find you
What would I be wearing, doing
And who with

Would we travel
To imaginary lands made real in unbelievable sights
To the farthest corners of the earth, together

Will we be best friends
Sharing everything and anything
Trusting wholeheartedly with no regrets

Would you share my passion
Or stand by the sidelines cheering me on
Either way, just feeling your presence there

When will this all be a reality
Despite trusting in the heavenly father’s timing
I can’t help but feel this sense